Hello there,
I decided to take a look into what's going on with this. I do not know you, nor have I interacted with you to my memory during my time on innectis. Let me preface this. I dont even know who you are and from what you've written you acknowledge you've been banned several times. But while you've mentioned 'issues' with you, you still attribute your actions to everyone but yourself. I find this alone disturbing and very telling of your attitude and maturity level, and none of it good.
Having reviewed your past, that's an entirely different story. You have 9+ Ban threads from pretty much every one of the staff members at the time. Knowing some of them, Alpha in particular being a particularly forgiving individual, having banned you tells a lot. All of them follow the same general note - You dont get along with people and you have anger/attitude issues. Anger aside, when you lash out at players and refuse to obey staff when they tell you to calm down and they are forced to ban you, any 'provocation' you may have received is null and void. Society doesn't throw people in jail who have issues, they throw the people who act out in jail. You, and only you are responsible for your actions. We all have our off days, but enough to get you banned 9 consecutive times?! No. The picture being painted is that you are toxic to this community and your fate was to be sealed when you got your indefinite ban.
That being said, it has been over a year. I believe in forgiveness, and we periodically review and take people off our indefinite ban list. Periodically being every several months or whenever we feel inclined to do so. If you think you can demonstrate a modicum of control and behave yourself and assure me you will do so, I will personally appeal for your ban to be lifted. This is not a guarantee by any means that any change will happen, and should it be lifted there is every chance you will be thrown right back out onto the permaban list at the first offense you commit thereafter. What I can promise you is that in the chance that your permaban is lifted, should you somehow find yourself banned again, don't expect to come back. Ever. Food for thought.
What say you?